maindra's

back from outer space

Diposkan oleh maindra di 6:49 AM

hello,
oh hell its 20-14. yeay.
i dont really want to write down all the feelings here, but this morning my ex-workplace friend ask me to continuing this blog, and i give myself a try :p
re-read all the blog posts, how time flies!
all the dreams that been written here, all the resolutions, how people come and go, and come again, and in the end they finally are gone.
my grammars sucks, i know, too busy to increase my capability
see you around vewy zoon

Love, mai

Picture tells everything

Diposkan oleh maindra di 3:58 AM

i finally am a bachelor of psychology!

what makes me happier? because my boyfriend got it too! i'm too excited to tell you what happened in the last 3 weeks, it was too many happiness to be written.

you're one of my reason to make it done, Bunny

tim sukses 18 februari

terima kasih!

Finally

my happiness is complete!

before the show :p

bonus from my parents, thankyou!

i do believe in God, i do believe in prayers and hopes, i do believe in miracle.

i cant believe all the short-term-goals is just happened, just like what i ever wish.

in this very last day in 2012

Diposkan oleh maindra di 4:44 PM

i've decided to writing in this page again after a very long time in the end of the year, i dont really care about if someone will read my posts or not, but i'm enjoying writing as much as a good things i ever had. in this very last day of 2012 i realize, bad things and good things actually happened in this year. i used to be that close to college-friends, but as time goes on, everyone became a stranger, we were so busy with ourself -and our priorities, we met to say hai infrequently, and yeah i'm just fine, people come and go right? i lost some friends and made some friends. dont expect i will be there if they need me someday, maybe i wont be.

one of great moment in this year was, i joined Ququmacan again, as an art director, i know you wont believe it :p but i did. we made a great short film called Conversation, i bet you will love that one!

another good thing, i can hold my relationship with him, been a year! what a surprise. i'm not bored like i used to be :p , since we are not teenagers anymore. be with someone who loves me in white and black side, take a good care of me, deal with my bad-mood-habit patiently, promise i will stay as long as i can. we are in our way to reach our dreams.

another dream, maybe its a resolution just made couple weeks ago, to catch that, i need to finish my college in march, and preparing for ielts score. ohya, finishing my essay in March was not my plan actually, i prepared to make it done in January, but yeah many things happened but i've learned from that. thank you for always here, in my stress and anxiety conditions, bunny.

i used to be that care about what others think of me, i think its bad, like someone said, they dont understand what i've been through, fuck people, just do your best. hahaha. i know i will.

for 2013, i wish i can reach all the resolution. travel to the place i've never been before, be a better person, etcetera etcetera.

hope you enjoy your day people! have a good new year's eve! see you in 2013! wooohoooo!

WHATS UP PEOPLE

Diposkan oleh maindra di 6:29 AM

woohooooo!

it's been very very long time ago since my last post in here, i'm not officially back, but i think i need to write something on my personal blog. mehehehe. it was my therapy, to write down my feelings somewhere, and i'm trying to doing it again, now. unfortunately i cant find blogger iPad application, its just rebyek to open this laptop blablabla, oh well at least i'm trying to writing something! yiihaa

soooo...

eenngggg,

to be honest, this is so hard, you know, to starting writing after you're (finally) back from outer space. oke lets talk about your daily routine maindra,

yeaah i'm in my last semester (AMEYN) to be an undergraduate student, this is my 9th semester. yeah dont be that shock, it's normal if you studying Psychology (its called defense mechanism) bahaha. but still, i hope i'll get my bachelor as soon as possible with all the my close mates and also boyfriend. we can do this!

the proposal was officially not useful since i need to change my research topic, yeah it was terrible but it's worth to do, ameyn again. enough to talk about this shit, i got headache suddenly.

and theeeen, i'm a part-time teacher right nooow yihaaa. couldnt believe i can handle all of the children, they are too cute, i have some class from 3 y.o til 12 y.o, it's like a game course, yes it is, Mindlab is trying to teach chlidren with games, it's fun!

hoyah, i'm in relationship for almost 10 months, this is unbelievable, i thought it was just easy to be his girlfriend, we were a best friend before, and it's going like that until now, luckily.

yayayaa, i have to back to my skripsi thing

see you later. hemwah!

happy mamaw's day

Diposkan oleh maindra di 2:27 PM

‎"Home is where your Mom is"

happy mama's day dokter tris , i love you the most, you know it ♥

keinginan saya cuma satu, bikin mama seneng

nyam!

Diposkan oleh maindra di 4:14 AM

anak paling gomik seantero jagad raya

it's over

Diposkan oleh maindra di 7:00 PM

akhirnya akhirnya akhirnyaaa!

Psychofest is oooover! we made it greeaaat!

susahnya senengnya, yang marah-marah, yang musuhan, capek, seneng, susah, semuanya lengkap selama 6 bulan ini. kecuali bagi kamu, yang ada tapi gak ada, yang berlabel panitia tapi gak turut banyak terlibat, yang gak ikut susah payah karena ini itu blahblahblah, poor you. mungkin ujungnya kamu kurang bisa menikmati acara. dan saya, puas sama apa yang akhirnya selesai ini.

thank you so much for this memorable stories. i'm gonna miss it someday, we are gonna miss it!

this is. YEAAYNESS!

PSYCHOFEST 2011 GARAGE SALE-FOOD FEST-BAND PERFORMANCE

Diposkan oleh maindra di 4:09 PM

short getaway : Psychocamp 2011

Diposkan oleh maindra di 3:38 PM

this is my first experience being a tourist in psychocamp. when you're being a tourist there, it means you're old. time flies. we were there a year ago, preparing all of the new students utilities. it was a very very very good moment. and now the camp (tourists camp) was sooo sooo soooo weird, i dont know why, but yeah some friends act like it not used to be, trying to make a joke but still weird, trying to be friendly but failed.

but i had a great time, indeed. maybe beacause we were in difficult time, our big event was on big problems, but yeah, it was, now all we have to do is just keep struggling and hoping and believing, we are gonna work it out! its all about time.

see you next year, Psychocamp

no matter how, it will always be a good moment

sense of your passion

Diposkan oleh maindra di 4:50 PM

I'M SO EXCITED!

remember, however the situation is, i'm in!

karena menurut saya, bukan ada tidaknya namamu didalam daftar panitia, tapi bagaimana kamu berjuang sampai perang selesai. setidaknya, saya tidak memilih menjadi pengecut, atau pecundang.

:)

Diposkan oleh maindra di 2:43 AM

And forever has come to an end

-..-

sepuluh logika

Diposkan oleh maindra di 8:43 AM

kenapa 10 logika?

karena dulu, so long time ago, somebody told me: jangan selalu pakai perasaan, nanti sakit hati terus. pake skala 7 logika 3 perasaan. okey then, lalu saya selalu pakai 9 logika 1 perasaan, bukan selalu, tapi hampir selalu. dan kenapa kali ini harus 10 logika? mungkin kalau skalanya sampai 100, mungkin judulnya akan 100 logika. intinya, this is the highest that i need to choose.

kalau saya selalu bilang saya selalu baik-baik saja. mungkin kali ini, itu salah. ketika saya, ternyata, gak kuat untuk menata logika, memendam rapat, memilih untuk tidak tahu saja, menerima segala ocehan tidak penting dari manusia sekitar sana yang tidak tahu menahu yang sok tahu. i didnt get your joke guys. and i dont wanna laugh, or should i just scream loudly on yer face? ketika pikiran saya malah terputar balik terdorong terjerumus dan jatuh terhempas lalu berubah menjadi 10 perasaan di antara 10 detik di siang ini. mungkin memang hanya sekian detik didepan manusia bernama fauziya ardilla. but, really, it means to me. saya gak pernah kelihatan selemah itu, selama kurang lebih dua tahun terakhir. lalu saya melemah dan putar otak lagi. di menit berikutnya saya bahagia lagi. logika sudah berjalan rupanya.

terimakasih. mungkin Dia sedang ingin bilang bahwa saya masih seorang yang sama saja, seperti dulu atau bertahun lalu. saya cuma lebih kuat kali ini. lalu semoga semua baik-baik saja. untuk kamu, yang saat ini ada, dan mungkin akan pergi juga nantinya, tidak apa-apa. mari menikmati apa yang ada.

bagaimana

Diposkan oleh maindra di 9:55 PM

sebenarnya ini bukan tulisan yang mellow yellow. saya cuma duduk aja diatas bantal polkadot pink yang baru beli kemarin dalam rangka agar semester ini lebih betah dirumah, duduk disini, didepan meja yang space nya tinggal separuh, so many stuffs here, berantakan. tapi ini favourite spot di hari libur, kalau capek tidur.

tadi malem saya dapet pertanyaan yang bikin deg sebentar

"bagaimana sebenarnya?". bahkan yang ditanya aja juga gak punya jawaban. saya cuma ketawa aja sih, jangan ditanya, saya juga gak tau. lalu dia jawab lagi "awalnya kamu tahu, tapi seiring dengan jalannya waktu kamu jadi gak tau. berarti emang ada perubahan kan?".

lalu saya menjelaskan, sebenarnya bukan perubahan, tapi memang sih tiba-tiba aja, gak sengaja, kayak gini. lalu pernyataan saya disangkal lagi mentah-mentah "itu bukan tiba-tiba! ada sebab, need, dan want! tiba-tiba itu gak ada kalau ga ada keinginan dan kebutuhan. jangan ndiliki kerso".

sungguh saya ga pernah punya keinginan ndiliki kerso gusti pangeran, itu ga pareng kata orang jawa. tapi lalu bagaimana ketika saya sendiri gak punya jawabannya. jawaban ini cuma ada di Dia dan dia. iya kan? saya sih cuma membiarkan semuanya mengalir aja. ngikutin alurnya. ikutin cara mainnya. ikutin filmnya.

saya lebih memilih menjalani hari-hari ini dengan biasa-biasa saja. dan untuk mereka mengira saya galau atau sedih atau apalah, karena seseorang yang dulu itu, enggak, kalian salah, saya bahkan senang sekali kalau dia senang, we are friends. i've told you, he is so kind, dia sudah menemukan yang lebih baik :)

kalau kata dekik, kita harus selalu bahagia.

mari mengerjakan tugaaaass. ciyat!

i'm back baby

Diposkan oleh maindra di 5:42 AM

halohalohalo everybody. been so long time ya. jadi ceritanya sebulanan kemarin sama sekali gak nulis apa-apa. padahal selalu banyak cerita yang pengen ditulis, i was too lazy to buy some pulse buat modem. dan sepertinya saya terlalu gaptek buat ngeblog pakai iPad. yayayaa. banyak cerita.

bytheway SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI semuanya! minal aidzin wal faidzin semoga saling memaafkan beneran ya. bukan yang minta maaf sekarang, tp masih aja ngoomongin dibelakang. ah yasudahlah namanya juga manusia.

after i got a super long holiday, saya dapet kerjaan lagi, disuruh bantuin yeaa something like open recruitment buat bank. kali ini personil nya tetep sih sama Vika, Ekki, Rajif. cuma sekarang nambah Lely sama Decky. dimulai dari sebelum ramadhan sampai hari ke-9 puasa. setiap hari ada ajalah ya yang bikin ngakak. mulai dari berangkat, cari tempat buka puasa, sholat, sampai pulang. we did it together. walaupun kerjaan banyak, tapi tetep aja ujungnya seneng. walaupun habis ngantor itu super capek tapi tetep aja masih semangat buat ngobrol dulu cerita-cerita dulu sampai tengah malem baru deh pulang, dan ketemu lagi besok paginya. bahkan sampai ke sidoarjo segala nyari makanan buka puasa. saking niatnya kan makan bebek. daaan yang paling buntu adalah malem minggu ke House of Sampoerna dadakan, katanya mereka pengen ngajakin saya malem mingguan, kenyataanya sampai disana dikerjain habis-habisan :| yayaya saya terima deh. but it feels like we dont want let the time goes so fast. we want to share everything, laugh everytime, do something stupid, together.

ujungnya setelah hari ke-9 itu. tetep aja masih sering ketemu dikampus ngomongin PF lah, rapat, nemenin ekki kesana kesini, nemenin decky, nemenin saya juga deng. emang paling sering kita cuma bertiga. buntunya itu loh, kebangetan. yang kerumah ekki bersihin kandang kelinci, nggambas dimobil nungguin anak dua itu jumatan, kebut-kebutan di jalan tol, minum milo sama mi goreng, jualan baju buat dana PF bareng sama vika dewa dan lain-lain, we did it selama bulan ramadhan. but i was happy. i'm still happy until now when i remember it. this is happpiinneess! you guys are awesome. thankyou. it was a great time with a great friends. koyek dulu sini satu-satu!

Selamat datang semester tujuh teman-teman. semoga PF 2011 lancar jaya! semoga kita tetap bersama walaupun tugas menghadang!

Things has changed

Diposkan oleh maindra di 7:11 AM

Few days ago i told my friend that in real life, nothing lasts forever, even friends, sometimes best friends. Because people has changed. Hard days, terrible ways. But we have to finish all the games.

I know and believe, semakin kita bertambah umur, life's getting hard, problem's more difficult. Bahkan masalah yang timbul kadang dari sesuatu yang buat mikirnya aja gak kepikiran, tiba-tiba masalah dateng aja. Dan udah kewajiban kita buat selesaikan semuanya. Selesai satu masalah, timbul yang lainnya. Sejauh ini saya sih mikirnya life is just to finish our problems, then waiting another problems to come.

bad start to holiday

Diposkan oleh maindra di 5:05 PM

kemarin setelah ujian horror PMDO di hari senin jam setengah 8, the holiday is begin! iyeah~

bayangan kalau waktu liburan datang saya akan ongkang-ongkang kaki dirumah, baca novel lalu minum kopi, atau nonton dvd sampai ketiduran lalu nonton lagi dan ketiduran lagi ternyata salah besar.

saya harus direpotkan secara pikiran oleh teman dekat saya yang tiba-tiba ngambek tanpa sebab. dan saya gak tau marah ke siapa, dan kenapa. but i guess it was me. dan saya sepertinya tau apa yang terjadi kalau misalnya itu memang Saya. oke, if you read this post, tolong be more mature sedikit saja. ask me anything you want, blame me, judge me, and i wanna explain all of those shits. karena diam saja selagi marah, itu memang baik tapi ya tetep aja ujungnya harus diomongin, walaupun diam selagi marah itu memang super cool, tapi itu sama sekali gak mbois. be gentle.

the sweetest goodbye

Diposkan oleh maindra di 2:54 AM

finally. we have done these things. almost eight months being together, i need you day by day. but still, i cant be yours. you know it. too much things stay on my mind. i know this is the risk. i'll take it. and 'the day' is coming in this afternoon. it doesnt matter, i'm totally okey here. you're so kind. everything has been written down, we dont know whats tomorrow. so no need to worry. thankyou for everything. yes, i know where to find you.

i love my macan

Diposkan oleh maindra di 1:46 AM

this is a lovely gift from my dear Putri Macan, she's a greaaat illustrator!

i love her!

thankyouuu baby!

dua puluh, satu

Diposkan oleh maindra di 5:16 PM

hello i'm twenty now. twenty one. haha.

terimakasih Tuhan yang maha segalanya,

semoga saya lebih rajin sholat. lebih banyak ibadah. karena umur yang bertambah.

kenapa-saya-sudah-dua-puluh-satu-tahun

time fliest.

kata om nobo: kalau kita merasa waktu cepat berlalu, berarti kita bahagia menjalaninya.

haha. amin lah.

baiklah, selamat ulang tahun Maindra Fauziannisa

i'm proud of myself. i wanna reach all my dreams. i'm on my way to build the future.

semoga saya gak plin plan lagi. dan gak nyakitin perasaan banyak orang. Amin

umur

Diposkan oleh maindra di 3:12 AM

sebentar lagi saya umur 21 tahun

i want nothing but long holiday